- We reach to a point in life when we are ready for change and a whole bunch of information that will help unlock our self improvement power.
I have to admit that after somewhat life-changing and kinda painful experience with my first love, I had this difficulty moving on. I had to keep my WordPress account private, cut contacts and break my postpaid mobile sim card. That’s to minimize contact with the person who caused me a lot of happiness and pain. But of course, I have no one to blame but myself for just falling in love. Now I choose just to be alone. How could someone thought of not being worth it for my love? I don’t know. It might be that the other person doesn’t just want me the way that I am. I thought there’s hope though there’s really none. I don’t know. I should have known anyway. And this is all I know. ☺ I stopped asking questions ‘coz I found it hard to be answered with a question also. I need an answer and it seemed, there is no way for me to get any answer. I stopped. I moved on and let go. I tried to overthink more and it led me to a world of endless imagination and fantasy then reality hit me in the face and I woke up. To tell you honestly, being in love then trying to fall out of love with your first love is kinda hard. You’ll still hope, try to check if there would be second chances after rejection and think of possibilities and unending what ifs. I quit asking for what ifs. I ended up believing we are really not on the same page.
Being a Technical Support /Sales Specialist and law student at the same time is really challenging. I have to cut my social media hours and hours of calling to minutes every time I call my mom. I need to read more and spend most of my time doing some sort of researches and yep, I have found my second love- which is law school.
I do not know yet where this road will take me but I will not know unless I take it. There are no guarantees. For now, all I can say is I am enjoying my life and kinda excited about the path that I am taking.
Thanks be to God!